The two previous posts are the lines from two of my favorite songs in the playlist this week. Syndrome it is. Good night to you. :) Sweetest dreams. **PRAY

And I'll whisper quietly, I'll give you nothing but truth,


If you're not inside me, I'll put my future in you............

...........

And all I feel in my stomach is butterflies the beautiful kind
Making up for lost time, taking flight, making me feel like

I just want to know you better know you better know you better now. ♥

(Photo not mine//(c)tumblr)
Never judge me by how I'm related to you. Judge me as a me alone, being a being. 

You are a princess in my heart,
and I care for you so much.
I love the fondness in you eyes and your tender little touch.

I looked at you when you were born,
and knew then straight away,
that I would be forever here
to watch you grow and play.

You bring to me a heart of joy,
and memories so great,
and a powerful sense of fatherhood that no one can debate.

I watch you sleep and dream of things that I can only wonder.
That innocent look upon your face just makes my heart grow fonder.

I see you run and jump and shout and calling out my name.
No love that I have ever known could ever feel the same.
No suffering or tragedy nor deeply seated pain
could ever over shadow the bond that we retain.

And so my little princess before you go to sleep,
Remember I am your daddy and I am yours to keep.


(Source: Fathers Love To Daughter, I Am Yours To Keep, Daughter Poem http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/fathers-love-to-daughter#ixzz2WIXkXQJy )

BATANES, See you soon ♥♥♥(photo not mine//(c)Google)

LIFE BEGINS at the end of your COMFORT ZONE.
(photo not mine//(c)google)

It’s not always rainbows and butterflies.....

June 7, 2013 entry

"First week is almost over. All I can say is.. it will never be the same again. Like before. Ughhh. With all the new sched, blockmates, profs. Everything...

 I’m just missing a lot of people lately. That’s why getting pretty much attached to anything is not helpful. The tendency of people is to depend. To cling. If I continue depending on people alone, how can I survived in this world full of uncertainties?"

Reminding a forgetful mind...

This feeling I have is taking me back to the same feeling I had when my dad left. For good.

I will give everything just to get a single hug from him. Crying as hard as I can. Tell me what will I do just to have a glance of him. Cause I’m afraid. I’m afraid that I might forget the sound of his laugh soon.

 :(

Then, I started living my life full of worries. 

 My heart was full of fear.

 I’m always afraid of being left.

 I got tired of watching people come and go.

 I got filled with broken promises.

 I felt sad.

 I was hurt.

 I cried.

 I got broken. 

 I grieved.

Then I surrendered. 

I lifted all my thoughts and feelings to Him. And He said He is with me. I was never alone. He is suffering with me. All this time that I thought I was doing things on my own. That I worry alone. He made me realize that I have His attention. He never left me nor forsake me.

Dade is one of the greatest blessing God has given me. No remarks can express how grateful I am to have you as our father. God extended His unconditional love to us through you. Those thirteen years are the thirteen years of my existence that I will never forget. I’m just so blessed to spend it with you and the whole family.

Got stucked already. And for once, I decided to move on. And live the new journey that awaits me. To live a new life that God is offering me. My strength is limited. So is my ability. My time. My life…

But my God is unlimited. A God of second chances. His thinking and His ways are far better than mine. He’s bigger than my fears and frets. Thank you for telling me it’s never too late. Thank you for not giving up on me. I’m lost and you have found me. You have bought the price for me. Now I am sold. With all I am, I will lift Your name high. Because it was never been about me. It will always be You. Forever. Promise.

 Love, xxx

Entry 05-0X-13

Why are people afraid to go behind others? Or should I say, why do people always try to exceed others?

Will it make them more acceptable? More lovable? Or they just want to prove something to themselves?

Thank you for letting me and others know that I’m not good enough. And that I could never be.

These things will not bring me down. These things will not make me give up. I don’t have to prove anything to others. I should stop pleasing them and start pleasing God. He knows my heart and my desires. 

Funny how a paper, a prayer and a sleep made me forget the worse scenarios and thoughts of that day.